so this week is suicide awareness week, and i must say i am very proud to tell everyone that it has been 2 years,seen i last tried to take my life with sleeping pills,and granted i may think of my life as worthless and im not worth anything to anyone…and i have been fighting this battle for a very long time now and not many people know…but i can proudly say i known what my perpupes is in life and why i am here and that i am living for a reason and i may not know what that reason is yet but i know i will find it soon…i will continue to help people and help myself in this illness…for once in my life i am happy with my life it may not be how i wanted it to be but its there…i may think suicide is the answer but i know its not and i cant be more proud of myself for fighting this evil..and i have to thank my amazing support team and my true friends for sticking by my side and not call me crazy..because i am far from that..i dont think anyone deserves to die..or kill themselfs and i hope kids like me understand that there is hope in everything and in life and you just gotta fight really hard because in the end its worth it.♥

so an huge update in my life…i am NO longer with DeeJay it has been about 2months seen i packed my shit and left him..after his abuse i got the balls enough to say fuck this shit…i never knew how much words hurt and see the shit i saw and the pain i fought in myself….i flew home about 4 weeks ago..and started to patch my life up..and so far i am doing a hell of a good job! i am enrolled in collage i got back my amazing friends who i would never give up ever again…i met and adore this guy named brad who is so respectful..and treats me like a princess..and he is just drop dead adorable<3 he asked me out last Sunday and i know his not like the others…my life is looking up for once in my life yes i wasted a year n a half on a doosh bag who in the time i left got a new girlfriend that same night…i am repairing my family..and i have a whole new out look on life..threw my pain..and happiness i will get over my past to start my future with my friends that have my back no matter what to this amazing guy who has already told me that his not going anywhere and that one day he wants to make me his wife…i will push forward and not look back!